Are you a comfort seeker or a Cross bearer? "And if you do not carry your own cross and follow me, you cannot be my disciple." --Luke 14:27 NLT March 17th, 2014 "Do I write about my past? Do I want to open that door? Use me Jesus, and help me to know how to listen to you. I know I hear your voice. But do I take the time to really listen? To act on what you are saying? Lord, teach me to follow you, every second of the day…" I just came across this journal entry and reflections from the book "Not a Fan" by Kyle Idleman. It was a rude awakening as I re-read my raw thoughts from March, 2014. Idleman asks some questions that made me feel a little uncomfortable more than 2 years ago and continue to make me feel uneasy today. I feel this way because I'm convicted. Questions like…. "Am I really carrying a cross if there is no suffering and sacrifice?" or...